Some Monday morning silliness…
Mondays, oh I hate
The end of fun, start of work
Coffee, yes please, now
Have a lovely day… Kat
Some Monday morning silliness…
Have a lovely day… Kat
Today is the last day for National Suicide Prevention Week. I want to keep the momentum alive so I thought I should share some numbers with you that I plucked from the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention website…
Each year 44,193 American die by suicide.
There are an average of 121 suicides per day.
Let those staggering numbers sink in. Let’s end the stigma because everyone has a story and every story has a heart and every story with a heart has an important purpose in this world.
Your story is important.
You are not alone.
….Be rooted in Him and let your foundation be built on him. Establish your life and know that His love for you is unconditional. A glorious father he is, never faltering and always by our side. Be strong in your faith and overflowing with thankfulness…. Colossians 2:6-7
As always, thanks for reading… Kat
Glorify the struggle to remedy it with compassion.
I read some disturbing and misinformed things on the Internet about Chester Bennington’s suicide, well about suicide in general. There are many accusations of selfishness and cowardice towards those who take their own life. I do not believe these things to be true. Suicidal thoughts are a break down of all things, a push and pull battle within your head and your heart. Many people who are suicidal truly believe that those around them will be better off without them and there are others who are so far down the rabbit hole of depression that they cannot think straight. My hope is that instead of pointing fingers and escalating this negative stigma of mental illness, we actually lift up our voices, our hearts and our hands in prayer. Be vocal about the change you wish to see in the world, but with kindness. Share hope with those who feel like they have none. Take extra steps to show compassion for others because you never know who can really use it. Remember there are those who suffer in silence so you never know who is fighting hard against their own demons.
Some asked us to not glorify death. Instead I say we should glorify the cause of death to inform others of how people truly struggle so it is no longer a stigma. Bring to light the silent struggles of so many so they no longer feel ashamed of what tears them up inside.
For those reading this who are pressured by their own head and mislead by their heart… My tears are for the truly broken because I hurt along with you. You are not alone.
The Darkness is a Lie
By Kat Lange
Don’t fall down that rabbit hole my friend
Don’t chase those demons into the night
The hurt, the pain is not the end
The hurt, the gloom are not right
You are always beautiful, you are unique
And together, your demons we can defeat
So lift up your eyes and hold onto hope
Let the seeds of faith grow roots in your heart
Your life is a field of flowers just waiting to bloom
Your heart is beating in your body holding back the gloom
Open your eyes and realize your struggle is not your own
Open your eyes and realize you are not alone
Don’t shift the story of your life
To end it with a period
You are a forever-changing masterpiece
The work is not completed
Your pain is not your own to bare
A community of love is here for you
You have a story waiting to be shared
A story weaved with pieces of hurt and truth
A story that others can benefit from
A life worth living a life that is not done
Don’t type THE END to your story for it is not real
Your heart has so much left to feel
So hold onto hope, faith and love and when you’re in the dark
Remember you have a real, meaningful, beating, loving and thriving heart
Dedicated to those who are struggling in the darkness of depression. Share your story and thrive.
With the 4th of July around the corner and with tensions so high in our country, I just want to say something… Speak love.
Believe in it.
Pray for it.
Hope for it.
Thank you so much for stopping by. Don’t forget to head on over to my Instagram page @KatLangeDesigns and FOLLOW me on my creative journey of my everyday postings of life and the love of everything artsy fartsy.
Last month was a very special month so to keep up the awareness I would like to acknowledge the elephant in the room. Let’s talk mental health…
Let’s be honest… truth runs deeper than a lie.
So let’s just lay it all out. I have kept no secrets that I am bipolar and I have depression and ADHD. It is so hard at times to deal with this emotional and physical roller coaster but you know what I have discovered… mercy is waiting on the other side… if I am honest. I truly feel that I was given this gift to be transparent and to tell my story. Too often we are hushed like it’s a bad thing. Why?? Why should I hurt in silence when I can voice it?? Since I have been diagnosed I have found that mental issues are so prevalent around me and it isn’t something we should be ashamed of. We aren’t doing anyone any favors by keeping it silent and in the shadows.
When you are up you are up… a manic episode where I feel uber happy and energetic, racing thoughts, super creative, super jittery, super talkative, energy like I can run a marathon. I am the life of the party and the kids think I am really fun. Man, those racing thoughts are allowing me to plow through this write up like I am a racing to the finish line. Listening to music makes me want to dance, the sounds just feel good, I feel every beat, feel every word… heck the inspiration to this write up came from a song by Francesca Battistelli – If We’re Honest
I am listening to the music right now and I don’t think my fingers can type as fast as my mind is moving. It is seriously a surreal feeling. It feels like an awesome high to be honest; one that I don’t want to come down from. But the truth is, I will… I will come down from it and it will be hard. The reality of bipolar depression is that it is a literal emotional and physical roller coaster. Sometime soon (tomorrow or in a few days) my body and mind will switch and I will be in a really depressed state. It will be hard to wake up in the morning, hard to parent, hard to drive, hard to get off the couch, hard to think, hard to move really. It is a physical weight on your heart and on your mind and you have absolutely no reason to explain it away. I become Eeyore and it is a hard reality for me to deal with. I have been asked if I am “sad” but I don’t think I can describe it like that. I don’t think I can describe it as anything but “sigh and a head drop.” You just don’t feel like doing anything, you are tired all the time, it’s hard to process anything because you are in a fog, your body feels weighted, your words don’t seem to come out right, you are easily agitated, none of the normal fun stimuli seems to work and you just want to be left alone but you don’t want to be alone. So you try and figure that one out! It’s confusing and hard and dark and blah and lonely. It’s tearful for no reason, tired with plenty of rest, hard with out an excuse, smiling through the pain, it’s having questions that race in your head, it’s numb, it’s immobilizing, it’s hard and it’s often. That is the truth to it all. That is what so many people and I deal with in silence. So now you know. Share this post, tag your friends, talk about it so mental illness is no longer so stigmatized in our culture. Encourage people, be a real listener, be there, use your words wisely, have hope… always have hope and understand that this is real and it is hard and for some it is their whole reality. No one should suffer in silence, no one should feel alone in this. Everyone has a story to tell… and this is mine.
Also check out this other song by Francesca Battistelli that hits close to home.
I am a firm believer in spreading love and acceptance of others but most importantly acceptance of oneself, flaws and all. No one is perfect but our society frames this idea of good and perfect and proportionate and happy. But happiness is not based on perfectly measurable things. Happiness is as deep as the ocean and as wide as space and time. There are no measurable units to how we should be happy or how we should feel or look. Let us open our minds and hearts to acceptance of ourselves in all of our imperfections. Let us feel how we feel, look how we look and enjoy the roller coaster journey because it is what shapes us.
I read this article on the Darling Magazine blog and I found myself nodding in agreement and smiling at my computer like a big dummy. I wanted to share these words of explanation and acceptance that are often so hard to realize when you are drowning deep in the waters of doubt and depression. This quote from the article The Unlikely Gifts of Depression, says it all… “I have to remember that my path is unique… [and that] my situation is my story.”
Depression isn’t just about being unhappy. It is a blanket, a fog over you. It is a roller coaster of doubt & dismay, of energy & despair, of overthinking & anxiety ridden immobilizing fear, it is draining & tiring & tears & pain and a lot of times it is silent & alone. So that smile you see might be hiding true brokenness. It is not as simple as explaining the difference between happy and sad; it’s the gray area in between. But when you do, when you can find the words to your deep and darks you might find that you are not as alone as you think you are. Share your story because it might open your eyes and the conversation it starts can change hearts. Please realize that this is a part of you and it makes you unique, it makes you interesting, it makes your life colorful and that is a story to tell. Emotions are the color to the blank canvas of life, so show the world your painting.
Please click over to Darling Magazine blog and read on. I love this blog because it is about various important and fun issues woman are facing now.
Thanks for joining in on my roller coaster creative journey. Sorry I have been MIA, you know, life happened. It’s great to be back.
A look back to be grateful & move forward in confidence.
To reflect is a good thing, when it can foster growth for the future. Looking back I am now so excited for what is to come. The last 6 months came and went by so quick, seriously, did I just blink? I’ve forged new friendships, strengthened old ones and met some awesome clients along the way. I have grown professionally, personally & creatively, I have set goals and crossed them off my lists, my children are healthy, happy & oh so bratty… this is my life & I am oh so blessed. And it is through this growth, this roller coaster, and this crazy thing called life that I find my inspiration to keep creating.
As I am planning my youngest child’s 5th birthday, I am reminded of how precious time is. My littles are 4 & 6, how in the world did that happen? Being a creative mama is a challenge. Sick kiddos, holidays off, late night cries, temper tantrums, “Bubby is being mean to me!” “Sissy took my toy!”, time out, “No you can’t have candy at 8 in the morning!”, jumping on beds, “Mama, just one more (insert something fun or tasty here)”, potty breaks, play dates, homework practice, chicken “nugs”, Legos, princesses, Frozen, Avengers… yeah it’s a lot but it’s an amazing job & they are my muses. They help me to see the world through their wonder & innocence and it is such a great gift to draw daily inspiration from them. As a busy mama I encourage you to find the time to be creative in your day, however you can. Organize your time and you will see that a little bit of art, paint, pen & paper, hot glue, crayons, wood, (insert art medium here) will set you free.
My 2016 saying is… Here’s to sunshine, dancing in the rain & finding the silver lining in every cloud. And I have been looking to the sunshine everyday and trying to make sure I see the silver lining in every moment. I have improved on myself, have grown so much and I look forward to see what other adventures the rest of the year has for me, my sweet family, my businesses and life in general. I move forward in confidence, excitement and with a grateful heart.
How has the first half of the year been for you?
Have you taken the time to reflect so you can move forward with a grateful heart and confidence?
So let’s think positive & always keep moving forward. Thanks for joining me on my creative journey & please feel free to share with me on here or on my Facebook page or a picture on my Instagram page (@KatLangeDesigns) your inspirations & your story to creative happiness. Remember, look to the sunshine, have fun dancing in the rain & always search for the silver lining in every cloud.
Thanks for reading.
There are days that just whiz by and as I reflect I wonder to myself “what the heck happened?” Well as I start to break the day down, I realize that I ran all around town doing errands, went grocery shopping, came home and started some laundry, prepped dinner and then had just enough time to run and pick up the kids from school. Wow, I am tired just writing that. I have found that I can run myself ragged with ‘mommy duties’ and not give myself the work time and the leisure time that I really need to run a graphic design freelance and It Works business and to give myself some much needed me time to just breathe. I need to schedule my own time. Therefore, with summer schedule in mind I have made arrangements for my kids to go to a babysitter 1 day a week by bartering with another mom (we traded babysitting for babysitting). This will give me the much needed quiet time and business time. And 1 to 2 days a week are scheduled for cleaning and errand running and at least 2 days left for summer fun activities with the kiddos. Does anyone find themselves getting so weighed down with life that they forget to stop and schedule some ‘me’ time?? Where are all my busy mamas at??
I find that I am not a spontaneous person. I like to plan. I like to have lists and have post it notes as reminders everywhere. I prep and plan my week every Sunday night: appointments, play dates, coffee dates, shopping times, and errand running… yeah I like to plan. I am the type of mom who plans out meals and snacks before trips, lays out outfits and packs extras just in case, I put waters in the fridge the night before and plans out a packing list if we are doing something the next day. I am always with a cooler of waters and snacks and a bag of toys and electronic distracting devices in the car. So planning keeps me sane. I don’t try to fight it; I go with it. And acknowledging this about myself has made my life much more awesome. But when the last minute changes and things come up now I just go with that too. I have learned to pick my battles and I just go with the flow when I need to. And this has brought peace to my businesses as well.
Plan, prep, organize, schedule, write it down, prioritize, make some rules and allow some freedoms because we need to permit ourselves some special time for us and some important time for business. So go do it, get back on track and just do it. Your busy brain and body will thank you.
Thanks for reading… Cheers!
So as most of you know, I am a creative person. I love to do crafts with the kids and get messy and I LOVE color. But I wanted to introduce myself as a professional graphic designer. Hello, my name is Kat, let’s talk graphic design.
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Thank you everyone for following along on my journey.